I wrote a little on Instagram about being without Hayden. We’ve been pretty inseperable the 4 ish years we’ve known each other, even when he went on tour he was never that far away. I knew exactly when he was coming home. But with the Lockdown uncertainty is everyones play mate right now. I’m not enjoying it at all. My mood is low, lots of things annoy me. I’m sleeping all the time, but am always tired. I’m filling my time. Creating photos for The Curly Haired Girl and for Instagram, working on my island on Animal Crossing, painting, doing workouts I find online. Anything to pass the time. Any time I stop i feel a wave of tears come to the surface. I’m sure it’s not depression or saddness but more a lack of control. I have not control over what I eat everyday, how I spend my days, I can’t go anywhere, I’ve not even driven in over 2 weeks. I’m someone we enjoys being independent, being able to come and go as I please. I like a routine I set myself.
Just Bunny and I laying in bed thinking about shit and getting philosophical together.
DRESS – H&M | BUNNY -TY
Meet Bunny, my childhood companion. I’ve never gendered Bunny so can’t really say “he” means a lot to me, or “she” got me through some interesting times. Bunny is just Bunny. Bunny used to have a voice (thanks mum) but over the years Bunny has become silent but in some ways has spoken to me more.
Inspired to be more creative inside as I try and keep myself (asthmatic) and my mother (parkinson’s) as safe as possible. I saw a photo on Instagram of a lady lying on the edge of the bed with a bear next to her. The concept really interested me and I wanted to recreate it with Bunny. I also wish in some way that Bunny was actually Hayden. I miss him so much at the moment. We are making efforts to keep everyone safe and reducing the amount of time we spend with each other. It’s hard. If we lived together right now it would be fine but keeping a distance from your love is difficult. I did see Hayden through the porch door this afternoon. Congratulating him on finishing his first placement.
Working in the rain did no favours for my hair, it was beautifully curled. But here we are with a less put together look posing in the rain, inbetween people going about their business. Hayden was a trooper getting these shots from me. Working against the rain really pushes me into trying different poses to work as quickly as possible so I can put my jumper back on and get inside.
This shirt is a bargain from H&M, I’ve featured it on the blog and my Instagram (@ameliaboswell) before and love it. It’s really a bright pink but the edit makes it look much more peach. A bold statement with it’s puffed sleeves.
Making the whole look even more statement. I added a sequined handbag that used to be my mums and the best flatform shoes from Marks & Spencer. It’s such a simple look really but upgraded with bolder choices.
JEANS – NEWLOOK (TALL) | SHIRT –H&M | BAG – VINTAGE | SHOES – MARKS & SPENCER
photographer – Hayden
How to hold a healthy grudge. I hold a grudge quicker then most. Second chances aren’t for me. If I feel like you’ve done me wrong. Then you have and there is no coming back for it. I see holding a grudge as more self preservation. I don’t have the time or will power to smile and wave, pretend like everything is ok, when it’s not. Why waste your time and mine. Undertanding what kind if life you want to lead is the most important thing. Do you want to allow yourself to be exposed to situations that make you uncomfortable or sad, no. Then don’t allow it to happen. A healthy grudge is just self preservation. Undertand that you are moving forward but don’t let the grudge fester. Don’t over think it. Don’t bring it up to fuel your fire of hatered. See how you felt in the moment and how you came to hold a grudge and LET IT GO. But don’t allow it to happen again. More forward, not backwards. Accept it and put it to rest. You have one life and you shouldn’t just live it you should lead it. You are in control.
JUMPER – H&M | LIPSTICK – BURBERRY BEAUTY
Photos taken during a power outage. Lighting is my Iphone light using the mirror in my bedroom and flowers Hayden bought me for Valentines Day.
What do you do when you stay in a trendy hotel in London for one night? You watch Central Intelligence and Lady Bird, read the magazines that are in your room and get creeped out by the Tweety Bird and Sylvester mask. They were over the lighting by the bed so it looked like their eyes were glowing. Mama Shelter is a feast for the eyes and little touches like that really make staying in their hotel fun. I’ll talk more about the hotel in my next post. Yes, I took loads of photos while I was there. I wanted to see what kind of shots I could get by myself, and push my creative side.
Bright pink and a puffed sleeve, I’m in love with this shirt. The elastic detail at the cuff means you can really exaggerate the puff. I think I’ll be wearing this shirt loads over summer. Shirt is H&M I’m already thinking of how to style it. Possibly with a more feminine or girlie twist.