BAMBOO THOUGHTS

I wrote a little on Instagram about being without Hayden. We’ve been pretty inseperable the 4 ish years we’ve known each other, even when he went on tour he was never that far away. I knew exactly when he was coming home. But with the Lockdown uncertainty is everyones play mate right now. I’m not enjoying it at all. My mood is low, lots of things annoy me. I’m sleeping all the time, but am always tired. I’m filling my time. Creating photos for The Curly Haired Girl and for Instagram, working on my island on Animal Crossing, painting, doing workouts I find online. Anything to pass the time. Any time I stop i feel a wave of tears come to the surface. I’m sure it’s not depression or saddness but more a lack of control. I have not control over what I eat everyday, how I spend my days, I can’t go anywhere, I’ve not even driven in over 2 weeks. I’m someone we enjoys being independent, being able to come and go as I please. I like a routine I set myself.

DRESS OVER JEANS on the POOL LADDER

Daily isolation outfits are getting creative. Wearing cut off jeans, I actually wear them to my day job. Boots from Just Fab I bought years ago before I broke three toes and I’ve only just been able to get them back on. My favourite part of this look is the dress over jeans. I love this dress, it’s very see-though, but I love it. The muted green the peachy florals. It’s the perfect summer dress. Last time I featured this dress it was June and I wore little cycle short underneath and white plimsoles.

 

Staying at home has really made me restless and the warmer weather makes we want to swim. I’m sure If we lived in a warmer country my parents would have a pool. So I used their old ladder from a free-standing pool I had as a kid as a prop. The curtain from DKNY that I can’t get enough of apparently. Working on a “bygone era-pool side-over dressed-dramatic” shoot.

DRESS- H&M

JW PEI MINI FLAP in BLACK CROC

Ever get swept into Instagram ads? or Sponsored posts that highlight your feed? Well, I did. Here is the new bag I bought after seeing them on a post. I’ve been duped by sponcered posts and Instagram ads before and have regretted it. But this little bag is so cute. I’m obsessed with is. I would have created shoots at a local cafe a la Parisienne, but no. I’m in my parents house trying the make the most of having free time to create while on self-isolation. The wall decals are from an old Accessorize display. I saw with in a little box by the counter and asked what there were. My local Accessorize sells their old window displays and gives the money to charity. I’be had them for quite a while and use them every now and again.

Anyway back to the bag, a JW PEI mini flap in black croc. From a sustainable, vegan, American brand that are a husband and wife duo. Ticking so many boxes. The gold hardware details really sold me. I love attention to detail. A perfect shoulder length bag. No chain detailing because you really don’t need it. A little smaller then i thought, but still the perfect size. A classic bag for all occasions. I’m working out my next purchase from them already. Heavenly. Once we are all allowed out again I’ll be taking him out for coffee for sure.

BAG -JW PEI | TROUSERS – DOROTHY PERKINGS (old) | BLOUSE – ZARA (old) | PEARL EARRING -SHEIN

 

 

CURTAIN CREATIONS

Last time I wore a curtain it had been sewn into a princess dress. I think I was about two and it was a pinky red curtain, I wore it all the time. I use to sing “princess” all the time while wearing it. My mum would phone her friends and hold to phone out to me and I’d sing ¬†“Princess” down the phone. Endless amount of laughs from my mum and her pals. Fast forward 24ish years and here I an still playing around with curtains, keeping myself entertained during these strange times. And yes I’m still and princess.

CURTAIN – DKNY | T SHIRT – ZARA | BLACK JEANS – NEW LOOK (TALL) | LIPSTICK -BURBERRY

Shots taken with self timer at golden hour.

MEET BUNNY

Just Bunny and I laying in bed thinking about shit and getting philosophical together.

DRESS – H&M | BUNNY -TY

Meet Bunny, my childhood companion. I’ve never gendered Bunny so can’t really say “he” means a lot to me, or “she” got me through some interesting times. Bunny is just Bunny.¬†Bunny used to have a voice (thanks mum) but over the years Bunny has become silent but in some ways has spoken to me more.

Inspired to be more creative inside as I try and keep myself (asthmatic) and my mother (parkinson’s) as safe as possible. I saw a photo on Instagram of a lady lying on the edge of the bed with a bear next to her. The concept really interested me and I wanted to recreate it with Bunny. I also wish in some way that Bunny was actually Hayden. I miss him so much at the moment. We are making efforts to keep everyone safe and reducing the amount of time we spend with each other. It’s hard. If we lived together right now it would be fine but keeping a distance from your love is difficult. I did see Hayden through the porch door this afternoon. Congratulating him on finishing his first placement.