this year I’m learning to fall in love, with my body. My lifestyle over the years has changed, moving out of my teens and into my twenties has seen me go into the working world. Which has meant that I’ve made some bad habits. I’d eat what I wanted and lazed around after work. I would say that at this point I really didn’t like the way I felt about myself, I thought I was hideous ( truthfully, I’d cry a lot thinking about all the clothes I loved that didn’t fit me, how everyone around me was thin and out loving life, going on dates, going in holiday)
Finally I thought enough is enough, I don’t have to cry everyday. What’s the use in crying, I’m not actually sad. Around this revelation stage I want to see my oldest, loveliest friend in the whole world. We went out with a a guy I’d met once and have a fun time giggling away to ourselves and basically being totally ourselves. I thought to myself the next day that I should be laughing every day, creating stories and memories that would shape my future. ( the guy thing, didn’t last. That crashed and burned most spectacularly)
Moving forward I made a pact with myself to be active, my friend has a personal trainer. I’m not one for the gym. so thought I’d go running around my village. I would run every other day for a month and then go from there. Well a month flew by and I loved running. the Nike+ app was an amazing motivator. During this time I also took a look at my diet. I was living off sugar and carbs ( comfort food) and nothing else really. So I starting buying my favourite fruits, salads and healthier snacks. I turned my diet from all browns in colour to a rainbow of healthier potions.
So here I am sat watching the news typing away to you over a stone lighter a million times happier. I went to Topshop a couple of weeks ago and tried on some clothes and they fit!! I could have cried with happiness. I run maybe twice a week eat a rainbow of food colours and can’t see myself going back to my old habits.
The whole point of doing #HealthierHappierAmelia to fill my body with fuel not food. To give my body the energy to keep up with me, and if I lose a bit of weight in the process, great, but that’s not the goal.
If I want to drink wine, I’ll have wine, if I want chocolate cake I’ll have it. It’s not about punishment its about pride and power.