How to hold a healthy grudge. I hold a grudge quicker then most. Second chances aren’t for me. If I feel like you’ve done me wrong. Then you have and there is no coming back for it. I see holding a grudge as more self preservation. I don’t have the time or will power to smile and wave, pretend like everything is ok, when it’s not. Why waste your time and mine. Undertanding what kind if life you want to lead is the most important thing. Do you want to allow yourself to be exposed to situations that make you uncomfortable or sad, no. Then don’t allow it to happen. A healthy grudge is just self preservation. Undertand that you are moving forward but don’t let the grudge fester. Don’t over think it. Don’t bring it up to fuel your fire of hatered. See how you felt in the moment and how you came to hold a grudge and LET IT GO. But don’t allow it to happen again. More forward, not backwards. Accept it and put it to rest. You have one life and you shouldn’t just live it you should lead it. You are in control.
JUMPER – H&M | LIPSTICK – BURBERRY BEAUTY
Photos taken during a power outage. Lighting is my Iphone light using the mirror in my bedroom and flowers Hayden bought me for Valentines Day.
There is nothing quite like owning a piece from a designer that you’ve been a fan of longer than you can remember. Ganni is this designer for me. A fashion house that plays with style. Working with pattern and shaping to create something that’s both retro and modern. A timeless aesthetic that I’m obsessed with.
This neon seersucker cropped top went right into my basket. There is also a beige colourway. But I couldn’t get over the neon green. I can’t wait to wear this crop with shorts and with bare arms at the beach. The straps are tied in bows but could be tucked away for even more of a 90’s look.
Neon is apparently one of the key trends from Spring Summer 20. Neon is so hard to style without looking like you have just been to a rave. No glow bands here. Just a more 90’s punk/grunge nod to neon. Paired with silver eyeshadow. Super 90’s. A fluffy pink headband to balance the heavy looking outfit. Fishnet socks and flatform shoes.
Still available on Matches in both colourways in the sale. Higher markdown in the neon on Netaporter.com
SEERSUCKER TOP – GANNI | JEANS – NEW LOOK | TURTLE NECK – H&M | SHOES – MARKS AND SPENCER | BAG – ZARA | HEADBAND – TK-MAXX | SOCKS – TOPSHOP
Location – Upton Country House
Photographer – Hayden
A whole look of “old things” Long Tall Sally coat I’ve had about three years ago which I bought second hand. Simpley Bee dress From TK-Maxx from years ago. Newest addition are these boots I thrifted last month. Possibly the oldest and my most precious handbag. A bumble bee barrel from Dooney and Bourke, from about 14 years ago. I remember seeing Emma Roberts being the cover girl for Dooney 13 year old me was living for it.
I begged my auntie to source the bag for my birthday while she was in Manhatten.She bought The Holy Grail home, and it was mine. My auntie bought my the little matching coin purse too. The bag may be a little faded now, but honey, she’s staying for every. My pride and joy. I’d run into a burning house to get her out.
location – Weymouth Clock Tower
Photographer – Hayden
Wednesday is the day for coffee. If you call Wednesday ‘Hump Day’ or not, coffee midweek is needed. Spending the afternoon watching deer roam around a field while sipping a cup of jo really relaxes you. I spend the afternoon at Burley Manor. A stunning 4 star hotel in the New Forest. We sat in their lounge on comfy sofas chatting and relaxing, watching the deer in the park going about their day. Can you imagine how amazing it would be to stay at Burley Manor when it snows, or over Christmas? The cosiest aesthetic with plum colour walls, textured blinds, wood paneling, natural greens in the main lounge and bright, smart rooms to snooze in.
Wearing the comfiest ribbed turtle neck jumper from Marks & Spencer, with a little 80’s pop of a gold chain. layered over with a green tweed jacket. A Long Tall Sally jacket of dreams, with a little fluffy cuff for a little added drama.
JUMPER – MARKS & SPENCER | JEANS – NEW LOOK | NECKLACE – PRIMARK | JACKET – LONG TALL SALLY old
Location – Burely Manor
Photographer – Hayden
What do you do when you stay in a trendy hotel in London for one night? You watch Central Intelligence and Lady Bird, read the magazines that are in your room and get creeped out by the Tweety Bird and Sylvester mask. They were over the lighting by the bed so it looked like their eyes were glowing. Mama Shelter is a feast for the eyes and little touches like that really make staying in their hotel fun. I’ll talk more about the hotel in my next post. Yes, I took loads of photos while I was there. I wanted to see what kind of shots I could get by myself, and push my creative side.
Bright pink and a puffed sleeve, I’m in love with this shirt. The elastic detail at the cuff means you can really exaggerate the puff. I think I’ll be wearing this shirt loads over summer. Shirt is H&M I’m already thinking of how to style it. Possibly with a more feminine or girlie twist.
I went through my old work books a few weeks ago and came across a work book I did in reception (kindergarten) We had to find objects from a magazine and stick them in the book then count them. I chose shoes. My teacher even commented that I’d chosen shoes. My love for shoes spans over 20 years. How crazy is that? I’d say I am a shoe girl over anything else. Yes, handbags are lovely, but shoes. Shoes are where I get my most joy. While in Brighton I really needed a new pair of shoes. Something comfy, appropriate for Winter and that didn’t need breaking in. I went into Deichmann and picked there comfy black boots. They are super similar to the pair I bought about 4 years ago in a Deichmann in Truro. But when you find something you love, always buy it. Deichmann are perfect for me as I have big ol’ feet, they have a wide range of sizes. These Chelsea boots didn’t need breaking in and are versatile enough to be worn all the time. I wore them all around Brighton on our last day there, which was also my birthday.
Jacket – H&M (similar in B&W) |Beret – Vintage | Jeans – New Look (tall) | Boots – Deichmann |
Backpack – Desigual (linked similar) Jumper – H&M sale £6
Hayden and I are moving. I’ve mentioned a few times that we are on the hunt for a place to call our own. We both currently live really rural in the South of England and can’t wait to have bus connections and a takeaway that will deliver to us.
Back in August we picked the place we wanted. The most stunning apartment in town. We fell in love and could have moved in then and there. But it was still being built. Yet that’s right, it was a shell but we were sold. The plans said it would be finished November/December. But here we are in January still not moved in. Wrong parts were ordered, other building sites were behind so our site got pushed back further. So we waited. Had a few building site visits, and fell more in love every time.
If you know me in person, you could say I’m not the most patient person. I hate queueing at the bar, waiting from someone to hand me something annoys me, Waiting for food to cook, takes too long. So having to wait for our apartment to be finished is peeing me off to put it politely. But building never goes to plan, there are changes, problems that can’t be foreseen. I’m so impatient as I know how amazing it will be to have our own space. To play house, to decorate, We have the most perfect masculine sofa coming. To be able to build my adult life, is so motivating. To be able to start building a life with Hayden makes me giddy with excitement.
End of February is our moving date. There will be blog posts, empty apartment tours and blogs, As your girl is putting all her effort into blogging and Instagram, Youtube.